A Queer Desi

kemee:

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Of MICE and Women

Desperate to get back home to babes
Whose mouths have not tasted her milk in far too many days,
Back to a husband too distraught to brush hair or tie shoelaces,
Now unemployed, the nearly empty fridge haunting him in his sleep.
He reaches over the pillow and her hand is not there but her heart is.
Her heart is, and so she gives in and signs voluntary departure,
though no free will is present in the room.

Her apology echoes off the walls as she leaves,
Neck forever cramped from looking back to those still caged within
Checking that the pieces of herself placed strategically-
dignity preserved in the folds of her uniform,
strength wrapped tenderly around the steel bars,
hope tucked into dusty corners of cement-
will keep her comrades company until they too are free.

It’s like they put her on death row
With a final order of removal to execute the ghost of her American presence.
They didn’t even offer her a final meal,
though tonight their own children will eat the tomatoes that her husband picked in the fields
for dinner and be satisfied.
They will be satisfied, while her own children remain hungry for justice.

Infiltration is such a strong word.
But you must learn to hold its heat in your mouth,
Press its discomfort into the backs of your teeth,
Swish it around until your throat burns from its consequence,
Lest they pry it from your lips like they did your native tongue.

In our hands, we hold the umbrellas that keep us in the shadows.
But we are too fearful of reclaiming sunlight to let them go,
and it is not even raining.
It is not even raining yet our thoughts of self-hate strike us like thunder,
leaving the faint scent of burnt melanin in its wake.

Our bodies have been stripped of their majesty,
And we are now too comfortable being wallflowers.
We tiptoe around as if society is a minefield,
Yet it is in her heart where she has hidden that grenade,
And every “Go Back to Mexico” sends her trembling hand
Inching closer to pull that pin and detonate her dreams so she no longer has to defer them.

Infiltration is such a strong word.
It’s more like stepping into the future to pay a visit to ourselves
Like looking into the mirror and discovering that
Your reflection has been deported in your absence.

If there are truly spoils of war,
Then we are all the trophies of white supremacy,
Generations upon generations of cheap labor
Provided by disposable brown bodies that need never reach for the American Dream,
because it is an exercise in futility.

Have we come this far, that we can no longer dream in the language of our ancestors?

Have we come this far, that even our dreams are defined by imperialism?

That our self-loathing is tied to our survival?

That our success is couched in Western ideals?

Illegal. I am illegal.

We have to confront the ugly in ourselves if we are ever to overcome it.
We have to confront the ugly in our struggle if we are ever to overcome it.
We have to confront the ugly in our communities if we are ever to overcome it.

So let us be ugly together.

Let us be ugly together, for ugly pain yields power
Like the contractions that come before giving birth.
It teaches you how to scream after years of being told you have no voice.
Ugly pain refuses to be swept under the rug,
to be bribed by gilded handcuffs wrapped in a freedom gift box.

Ugly pain does not forget.

Ugly pain does not forget. 

Ugly pain does not forget. 

It does not hide the battle scars that are only visible to the battle-weary.

Illegal is such a strong word.
But it, too, must come out of the shadows.
Though at times we must wrap ourselves
in the security blanket and safety of undocumented to survive,
It is time to don our illegal suit of armor
And prepare to go to war with our internalized hate,
Swords of forgiveness raised to the sky,
Leaving empty shells of our egos scattered across the battlefield.

No one tells you what happens to the butterfly
After that first part of its migration.

No one will say that low priority
Is still a priority.

No one will blink an eye when you shout
That they are locking us up without a reason.

No one will shake their head if they knew that
Private prisons cash in on every immigrant body.

No one will believe you when you explain that
Deport Them All is not just a magic trick.
It is real.

Deport them all was two suicide attempts for Yanelli
Deport them all is a broken tail light for Wanda,
is driving while brown for Gustavo,
is coughing up blood for Maria.
Deport them all is working without papers for Adelaida,
is being in the passenger’s seat for Everilda,
who was being sent back to Guatemala
where her five family members were assassinated,
with a target on her back.
It is real. It is no magic trick or prophecy. It is today.

And tomorrow, what if we said, deport me instead?
Our collective ugly would be beautiful.
We could swell jail cells with our capacity,
like they rob us short of our humanity.
We could offer up our bodies like sacrificial lambs in orange jumpsuits
And dare them to feast on their own shame.

And what if we do nothing,
Grip our umbrellas tight until our knuckles turn white?
Do not let me lose this battle with my own complacency.
Do not let me face these demons alone.

Let us be ugly together.
So tired from fighting that that only way to stand shoulder to shoulder
Is if we lean on each other.
Let the blood from my wounds drip into yours and make us family.
Let us drill holes in each others pipelines
So that yellow and brown and black bodies may breathe shared oxygen.

Let us be ugly together.
Let us be ugly for our mothers for whom this country’s beauty has forsaken,
for our fathers who leave their dignity behind at home for safekeeping
before standing in parking lots for livelihood.
And if the callouses on their hands could speak,
they would yell, “Pick me! Choose me! Open the door, America. Please, just open the door.”

Let us be ugly together.
I’ll show you my pain if you show me your truth.
Let us shrug off this cloak of pretense and open the curtains of rhetoric.
Let me take your hand in mine and hold it so tight that
Our grip will send a message that Enough! Not. One. More.

Let us be ugly together.
Let us do it for them,
of MICE and women,
so that we may one day,
do it for ourselves.

lahoops:

We’ve infiltrated another immigration detention center, this time Calhoun County Jail in Michigan. Claudio Munoz, organizer with La Tuya in Texas allowed for her self to be detained on April 4th when she ‘accidentally’ drove to Canada.

Check out the VIDEO report back; stories of forced deportations, lack of medical care, DACA dreamers being detained, mothers being separated from kids despite being LOW-PRIORITY!

Please help us SHARE and get the word out - Michigan ICE is out of Control: Fire Adducci! http://bit.ly/fireicemi” -National Immigrant Youth Alliance

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Hemos infiltrado otro centro de detención de inmigración, esta vez en la cárcel del Condado Calhoun en Michigan. Claudia Muñoz, organizadora con La TUYA en Texas, se dejo arrestar el 4 de Abril cuando “accidentalmente” manejo a Canada.

Miren el video de la informacion que ha colectado; historias de deportaciones forzadas, la falta de cuidado medico, Soñadores del programa Acción Diferida siguen detenidos, madres separadas de sus hijos apesar de ser BAJA PRIORIDAD!

Por favor ayudenos con compartir y informar a la gente - ICE de Michigan esta fuera de control: DESPIDAN A ADUCCI! http://bit.ly/fireicemi